Yesterday was a good day. Despite Ashley being sick we had a good time together. We laid in bed until 12:00 or so watching movies and catching some much needed zzzz's. I know it will sound horrible of me to say, because she wasn't sick, but it was even more relaxing because she was just laid back, kickin' it, not whiny and needy. She.was.just.happy. I think sometimes all mommies and their babies need days like that. To.just.relax.

Today however, it was back to the daily grind. I was a little worried to send her back to school so soon, even though she no longer had a fever, because she has a cough but I really couldn't say home another day and hubby didn't feel like he could either. It's sad... I wish I weren't in that position, but I am, so I must accept it and just go with it, despite my discomfort, like it or not.

This morning when we got to school Ashley walked in the room and all her friends were so excited to see her back! I really get a kick out of those little kids. So small, so innocent but yet with such big people ideas! I told her I loved her and I bent down to give her a hug and it brought joy to my heart when she said "I yuve you, Mommy" and planted a big one on me! Oh how I do love her so.

It's amazing to me, how you can spend so much time with a little one and fall in love with them more and more every day. Don't get me wrong, I've always loved my child, but if you have children of your own, I willing to bet you probably understand!

Today was a day. Beside my boss going crazy, not so much on me so much or the other girl that works for him, but more on our situation. We are drowning in car accidents, good ones and bad ones. Ahhh... the joys of personal injury.

I've been thinking of going back "home". To my home, in the mountains of Virginia. Of course, I would want hubby to go too, and wouldn't make the move without him, but I doubt we will. I really do like it here in eastern NC and I can't wait for this summer cause I know we will have the most fun ever beachin' it but it is so hard to be away from family, especially when you have a sick child or Heaven forbid an emergency and no where to turn. Not that I would expect anyone to stop what they were doing or take the day off, just that there would be someone to count on, some back up, some relief. All the warm and fuzzy feelings aside, however, I know that we both have jobs that pay decently, we own a house, in need of "fixing up" before it could be sold for a "profit" and we truly do love it here. Catch 22.

Well, I'm off now, to finish my toes in case its warm enough for flip flops tomorrow (I don't think it will be, but I'ma gonna wear um anyways), clean up the "was clean 5 minutes ago" kitchen and finish my laundry for the week (yay... that usually doesn't happen until Sunday!). Thankgoodness tomorrow is Friday!